Trying to organize myself, finding myself, deciding what goes where, and realizing I am no where.

I am uncertain. I hate uncertainity. Sure I don\’t mind risk, but to an extent. I calculate my risks, or maybe I am under the false impression that I am good at it. I want to move on, I don\’t yet know where. Where I will go, where I am. I need to see where I am, but I can\’t find myself.

Of late I feel destroyed, but not explosively. Almost deconstructed, taken apart, bit by bit, helplessly watching myself, being eliminated, being wiped away.

I also need to try and find out the truth in my own thoughts. I am good at lying, but I think I\’ve been lying to myself all along. I am only human. I hope I am.

This post has been about me. All about me. But where am I? What am I? I have just been eliminated. Maybe, there is somewhere I can find myself, somewhere i belong, somewhere I exist.

I am tired of searching for that place.



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One response to “Somewhere….”

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    You’re sorry because you can find form to fit in. But don’t worry, don’t be sad or desperate, universe has no form, and it’s feeling quite okay with that.

    No man has form, except the form that is forced, that’s not natural, you are… so be happy 🙂