Good Morning…

Why does life have to be so?

Am I honest or deceptive?
I feel something which contradicts my mind….
Am I lying to myself?
Am I submitting to the cowardice of my mind?
What is the fear?
Is it rejection?
Is it \”being discovered\”?
Is it an uncertainity of the perception of the other person?

What do I fear?
What do I want?

I am lost…..

I have lost, yet won…..

Inside of me I feel joy at her joy…..
But am I selfish enough to crush her happiness?
For me?

She asked me once, why I\’ve always been there for her…for a moment I had no answer….I still don\’t.

I guess we\’re just great friends…..but is that what I really feel?
I have yet to come to terms with my own emotions……

But there has to be a point where the line is drawn…….a part of me…will win, the other will lose….
My fate…is undetermined……

I\’m happy if you are…..it\’s that simple……
I want nothing for myself……..

This is me……..plain, naked, bare, standing, in the sun, on the cliff, around me the deserts, in red…

Dusk is drawing near……the sun is sets on me…….but its rising on you…..
Mornings…are beautiful……

Good morning to you….